My worst nightmare

I usually forget my dreams as soon as I wake up; it’s the same for good dreams and nightmares.  There’s only one dream I can remember right now because it  was recently and it was a kind of trauma for me; I also felt very guilty the whole day and I was wondering why I have dreamed that after so many years.

I have recently dreamed about an ex-boyfriend and it was weird because I had not even been thinking about him.  I don’t want to tell you some details about that dream, and that’s not because it’s something private, it’s just because I really don’t remember very well.  I can just recall my feelings after waking up, I was sad and curious at the same time.  I believe dreams are our subconscious voice, but I had no idea I was nostalgic for such an old love story (we were together almost 15 years ago).  He was important, indeed! But dreaming about him was a nightmare for me because it’s been a very very very long time since we broke up.  I started to ask myself a lot of things about the past, about good and bad things, and I ended up being very sad that day.  My husband asked me why I was so silent and I just told him I had had a nightmare.  No details of course! I felt guilty because it was letting the past sleep between us although I didn't mean it.  L  (238 words)